Thursday, September 9, 2010

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I wouldn't call this feeling as love. My heart never beaten yet.As soon as I looked at that photo, particularly the caption reminded me of A's text msg the other night."I miss you so I am lonely.". I feel shame of myself that I acutally rummaged out this msg on my cellphone to look at what it exactly saying. It took me about 40sec tho. Even tho I've been so busy for school, I 've been also confused about myself, what my mind wants. also, the relationship between, he and I. well, none of us haven't defined the thing between us as relationshop tho. Here are confusing stuff b/ us. He always talks me, askes me how I am through the phone when we don't see each other including saying "miss you". He always drives all the way down to here to see me .like once a week. (We live so far away from eachother like 40mins aways) So far I mentioned sounds okay, but I can't help wonder the possilble which he may just see me as taking advantage. He always says tat he is not that line of guy like every other boys would say. I want to believe him really, for both of us. What is really bothers me, ironically everytime when "I" ask him to go out It never work out. In contrast, everytime he asks me, somehow it works. well, he is busy struggling work & school I know, I totally respect that. But just women's natural sense wouldn't let me stop fussing about us, I even feel it is actually, wasting time , being so distrusful..I know , it seems my mine doesn't. I just cant help it......


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